I'm still reeling over the news but as is my marital status: I'm divorced. I found out two days ago that my ex-husband (who's 30) and his 'fiance' (who started out 15, now 17) were in a motorcycle wreck. He was wasted (no surprise) and she wasn't wearing a helmet (again, no surprise). She was pronounced dead at the scene and he was arrested for driving on a revoked (.. no surprise there AT ALL), fleeing the scene, DWI, statutory rape and... get this.. VEHICULAR MANSLAUGHTER.

I dislike that someone died (even though I didn't approve of her or how wild her mother let her run) but he got what has been coming to him.

My mouth fell open when my EMT friend told me.

Damn. Glad I was smart enough to get out of there when he first went crazy and showed signs of drug addiction.

Let this be a lesson to you kids. Drugs are bad. Srsly.

For some reason I’ve always had a hard time making new friends. Back in the days when I was child that wasn’t really a problem but being alone was always my favorite. It still is and today you can socialize with texts, chats, Skype calls. What I mean is that you really do not have to be in physical contact with another human. This is how we connect and get our social needs filled. To have good health you need physical, mental and social needs to be fulfilled (this is something I learned when I study occupational therapy). IMVU is a great way to meet the old way and new way of socialize since you are a person but instead of using you voice you just use your words.

For the past six days I’ve been locked up in my apartment, due to the fact that I got the flu, so I have been online on IMVU more or less every minute I’ve been awake. Problem is, I don’t know that many people on IMVU that I would call my friends. And the less than a handful of people I talk to lives in another timezone and of co...

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Tired of my emotions being sucked up dry
Thoughts of failure run through my head
A slave to this feeling called anger that I dread.
Wishing I could just pretend that I'm OK
but this grip is set a little too tight revealing grey.
A faceless demon in command to torture
my mind within grasp of his foolish nurture.
Make this time be true
Let it be real I hope you get the clue
without the touch of evil my life is tuned
It won't come back and it won't intrude
Wont let it break, the string that's tied
I trust my own feelings, with nothing to hide
No more am I empty, you fill me with charm
allowing myself to commit, if not mutual, I wont be harmed
Don't be fooled, you are my ambition
something as quick as this, so exact, please listen..
Triggered by your smile, opens everything inside
when I'm down, you pull me up and make me feel alive.

this really has been a burning topic for me and i would really like to know.

Soooooo.... I've been absent some here lately but with good reason. One, I am almost done with three very cool tutorials for the graphic design section. Two, I have enlisted in the United States Marine Corp so after I leave for boot camp I wont be on for 3 months! But no worries. Directly after I will post here with new stuff once I get net access on base.

My other partial reason for being away is my photo retouching. I took on some free jobs just to get my work out there. I'm excited. My work flow is picking up pace which pleases me. It no longer takes me 10 hours to do one photo. Its nice to know that I am getting more comfortable with my tools. I just have to remember that there is the Undo button. Lol.

That's all for now!