i will now be mystery. my heart and soul is still there.... but ill now on hide my tears.. and happiness...i will no longer... show my motion to anybody no more.... there only few i trust... once they go i will not trust again.. so many years of betrayal and suffering i cant take it no more.....im in love with girl... but my fear is she gonna disappear or ill get hurt....she very beautiful and kind....beauty comes within....not how you look...i learn so many thing in life.. but i dont understand like is world really round.. or...if you loyal and respectful why do you get hurt....if you love someone so much why do they cheat.. what did world come to.....my life is soreness and sadness.. but there few who will put smile in my face.... if they disappear ill slowly disappear... like im nothing... im so fed up... in my pain.. i close my eye.. i see pain in my sleep when i wake up.... i see nightmare that just began... my life is slowly changing... to be successful....but... so much pain and...

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there was older woman who was always depress.....going throught pain....everytime we talk.... she always had smile on her...... she kept saying she live her life.... and happy one day she will see her husband...... Last night... I saw her in my dream... she gave kiss on my cheek and thank you coming..... today I found out she died..... in her sleep... this shattered in so bad... she better place... now she can see her husband.... RIP hun... god bless ur soul and I hope you enjoy ur day......



RIP

(name wont be on cause she was always type person who didn't want people know this situation...)

You have to find what sparks a light in you so that you in your own way can illuminate the world.

Life is ever changing, and life is fully about change. The bad part is not liking change.
As you grow up, you learn that you have to change. If you plan to try to stay one way forever,
you don't live. You become a slave to your own ways. You will never experience anything new,
and life will past you by. You will ultimately end up being that person, that at the end of their lives,
wishes they had done this or that.