My way of life is to avoid people to avoid being hurt. I walk in school and only talk to the ones that talk to me. I try my hardest to keep to myself and i don't have many friends or should i say any at all. I go to school alone and come back the same. I go to the park alone and come back the same. So why go home and be the same. No one to talk to no one that really understands me. At this point you think you know the type of person i am but you don't know SHIT!!! Thats why I'm going to tell you. I am a kid not your average but different I'm strange Im tall I have geeky glasses and I love to play basketball. Sounds like the normal kid right?!? But theres more. It seems to me that i enjoy pain i used to stick needles in my body and see if it would hurt it did and i loved it. Im crazy. I know i am i wake up everyday with pain in my body and i love it. i used to cut my chest and back and watch the blood flow to my feet. I used to poke holes in my ears and see if i could feel the wind through...

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I hate the ones that enjoy life because i can't. I hate the ones who are happy because i am always down. I hate the ones that have many friends because i only have myself. To me life is shit i have bad luck all the time and i don't know why. I get stitches one day and a broken thumb the next it like its all planned out with horrible events. Im not a bad kid i don't do drugs i don't make fun of people and i don't curse a lot. I guess fortune hates me because i always have bad luck in me. It sounds like I'm just complaining about my life i know it does. But I'm not this whole thing has a meaning and so does my bad luck, And yes I'm just a kid I'm only 12...

She stands alone, in a daze, as a single tear falls begotten
Her mind slips back to days filled with joy and laughter, not forgotten.
Her body trembles remembering his breath, his touch, his love deep within
Their joy, their happiness, their love all construed as a mortal sin.

Then one fateful night, God's hand reached down from the heavens above
To extinguish the raging flames of their desires and love.
The words they speak ring in her ears, her mind swirling with hate
She desperately tries to pull his tortured soul back from the almighty gate.

She stands in a daze, as visions fleet by of the twisted wreckage of metal
Broken glass, screams, bodies, lights, sirens, her mind just can't settle.
She feels cheated and robbed as her world crashes down around her
Time seems to stand still now as everything quickly slows to a blur.

She takes a deep breath, and slowly steps ahead
Trying to remember the words they last said.
Her whole life has changed now, in the blink of an eye
She lays a single...

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Treasured dolls, treasured balls
Treasured books, treasured looks
All the childhood dreams
Have faded, it would seem.

Treasured grins, treasured wins
Treasured skirts, treasured shirts
You're growing into an adult from a child
Becoming strong, from the meek and mild.

Treasured shows, treasured hair bows
Treasured rings, all of your treasured things
Although we are miles apart
You'll always be the treasure of my heart.

(Just copied my post from another section of the site.)

I wanna be able to tell the whole world that you are mine.
I wanna be able to show you that you are my world.
I wanna be the first thing on your mind when you wake up, the last thing on your mind when you fall asleep, and everywhere in between.
I wanna be the one by your side in good times and in bad.
I wanna be the one that makes your heart skip a beat, your knees weak, and your body tremble.
I wanna be your lady in the streets, but your freak in the sheets.
I wanna be the air beneath your wings, lifting you higher than you've ever been, supporting you so you don't fall, and catching you if you do.
I wanna be your student, your friend, your lover, your partner, and your equal.
I wanna be the only one you want, the one you beg to have more of, that you can't get enough of.
I wanna be the one that you break all the rules for, just to be with me.
I wanna be the one that you can't live without and you are the one that I can't breathe...

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