Have you ever had one of those experinces where the world slows down for you and it seems as if your brain is thinking too fast? I get that way when I stay up multiple nights in a row programming / scripting. Everything is in slow motion. Everything is calm...moving slowly around me and I feel as if I have to move in slow motion too or I will pass everything by...like a computer mouse set with too high a sensitivity...I have to move it slowly, but even in moving it slowly I am still moving faster than ever. Tasks that would normally take me hours to think through are suddenly taking 20 minutes. These are the moments that make me proud of myself, but they are soon followed by a complete burn out. I have maybe hours of this state left, and then I shall fall into a deep sleep...ready for the next several days.

I never thought that I would want to post my thought into a blog. I usually find a very old book/notebook whatever, write in it for a couple of days then lose it and find a new one after that. On and on. Maybe this way I won't lose anything. I don't really much mind if someone actually reads this. [ that would be a first ]

Though I cannot guarantee the sanity of those words. Some will be written in anger, some in sadness, some in happiness, while actually believing. [as we all probably do].

It's been a while since I quit my presence in all those scandals and my school. Nowadays I don't pretty much care if Y gets into a fight with X unless I get a part of it. I've finally realized I can't wait to graduate high school and leave behind all those incompetent muggles. Staring behind a wall of glass if quite helping; it keeps me sane after my unsuccessful and terrible thoughts of suicide.

But now...

[ Continued ]

wen i saw you i lost my heart, wen you saw me i lost my world